That's what I'm going to call it. Okay let me backtrack. A couple of weeks ago I went to a casserole night and I did pretty good, I only chose casseroles that were mainly vegetables and didn't eat all that much anyway. Because I work during the day they asked me to bring dessert as I wouldn't have a couple of hours to make up a decent casserole, so I had made an apple crumble. Easy peasy.
So I had a helping. Oh Lordy Lord I had a helping and I do believe I got that sweet taste craving back.
So after my fabulous everything has turned a corner weekend in the last post, on Sunday night I made another small apple crumble (as a treat for Mike yanno!!! it wasn't about me at all, oh yeah!) I'm raising my eyebrows at myself as I type. And I had another helping of apple crumble.
WHY?
I have no flipping idea. And since then I've noticed a few bad habits creeping back, one of them being eating in the car. That was my big thing, to have a munch on this and that in the car. Almost like it didn't count because I wasn't sitting at the table. Oh how easily we fool ourselves.
Then Wednesday's weigh in and all my ups and downs over the last 10 or so weeks and I'm now 200 grams more than when I started the round.
ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? I know I've done the damage to myself. I know I've loosened the reigns.
So I started thinking this morning that I had completely thrown away the round. What a waste. But have I? I know it's been a waste in the numbers game, the fitness game not a waste definitely, I'm fitter than ever before. Maybe ... just maybe ... this was the round I needed, to frighten me enough to know that I have to be ever vigilant every single day of my life. That I can slip and keep slipping and end up into a bottomless pit of apple crumble never to surface again. Or... scare me enough to take stock, pull up my big girl panties and stop whinging and whining and get back to business.
So that's what I did this morning. I slapped myself silly and made a commitment to myself, sitting at the kitchen table, on my own, enjoying my diet Carmen's muesli for breakfast, with my trusty sidekicks Molly and Lucky at my feet. Today was the day I was turning things around.
12wbt isn't the magic pill that's going to make me healthy and slender and confident and feeling wonderful. It is however the tool in which to use to build all that myself and maintain it for the rest of my life.
BUT IT'S UP TO ME.
Okay, that's said, let's move on. I want to talk about the
Pen Pal Project. More specifically a wonderful young lass named Emily from the blog energyandEmily fame. Emily arranged a
12wbt Pen Pal Project, what a great idea. We signed up, she gave us a name, we contacted and the rest as they say is history.
I was to send a gift to a lovely lady Katrina and I will post a pic of what I sent her in the next post, the photo is still on my big camera, I haven't downloaded it yet. I actually liked it so much I made one for myself too!!
Another lovely lady Alissa was given my name, and I was well and truly spoilt. She made up the most magnificent 12wbt survival pack which was full of beautifully packaged ingenious little gifts. I'll give you a couple of for instances. I don't want to say everything in the package here and the quirky little comments she put down, because I tell you she ought to make these up as a sideline, it was fantastic:
- SHINE: Let your soul shine and nose be delighted by this vanilla scented candle. (How on earth Alissa knew my favourite scent is vanilla is beyond me, in fact it was a joke at my old work that I wore vanilla scented perfume all the time, one of my old Sergeants once was heard to say "Mmmm Carol, you smell like the inside of a newly cleaned fridge") Hmmmmm.
- REFRESH: Sip on this organic Higher Living Ginger Kick tea for instant refreshment. Ginger is great for circulation and stomach upsets. (Looking forward to this one)
- HEAL: Patch up your war wounds with these Elastoplast Band-Aids. You might need these for blisters after all that training!! (Obviously Alissa knows of my disasters with blisters).
I won't go into detail of the 12 different little gifties in the pack, but needless to say it blew me away and I feel very warm and special having received it. I've said this to Alissa privately by email, but THANK YOU SO MUCH. And thank you Miss Emily for arranging such a fun thing to do this round.
And because I am an instagram nut now, this photograph went up immediately. Love love love.